Life
Reflecting on the Ides of March
Yesterday was the Ides of the March, the anniversary of the violent fall of Julius Ceasar. The Buddhist scripture below came to mind today when thinking about the date.
Caesar, of course, had “gathered” absolute power and “built up” an empire, yet in a single afternoon, that height was brought low. The transition from the zenith of Roman authority to a cold stone floor is a reminder that no amount of worldly accumulation can stall the inevitable cycle of death and decay. It’s a sobering reminder: even the most monumental human achievements are ultimately subject to the same laws of exhaustion and dispersal as the smallest flower.
Indeed, ‘there is nothing you can hold for very long."
On Other Sources of News
The screenshot below is from today’s New York Times. It is clear as day that the people in charge of the United States government today do not believe in the free press, free speech, or the truth. At this point, calling them authoratarian would be understating it. Bullshit from FCC Chair Brendan Carr, together with the near total domination of American media by right leaning, pro-regime corporations (see Bernie Sanders tweet below and this list of local TV stations in America owned by conservative Sinclair Media), means I am making a concerted effort nowadays to read more news from outside the United States and from indepedent outlets.
A great place to find international newspapers is RefDesk.com . Some sources I plan on reading more often going forward include the BBC, The Sunday Times (London), The Guardian (Manchester, UK), The Christian Science Monitor, as well as Israeli papers.


New Pew Polling on Buddhism in America
The Pew Research Center recently published polling about Buddhism in America. A few interesting facts include the following:
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As of 2020 only about 1.3% of the U.S. population was Buddhist.
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American Buddhists are much more likely to live in the West. This isn’t surprising considering the West Coast’s relative proximity to Asia.
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There is high turnover in that many who are Buddhist converted and many who were Buddhist left the religion.
I, of course, live in the West so I am a typical ‘American Buddhist’ in that regard. I also connect with the fluidity of being Buddhist, as I was raised with no religion and my specific beliefs about Buddhism have evolved over the past 30 years since I intially took refuge in the Three Jewels. In my case, I’ve moved from being more religous to what I’d describe as a ‘secular Buddhist.’
Pew also reports that Buddhism is shrinking world wide. I take heart that ‘religiously unaffiliated’ is a growing group worldwide. Sadly, the theistic religions continue to grow. (See the second image below)
The quote shared below is from Pew’s related focus group interviews.


A Helpful Reminder
Today was the day one of the nine Supreme Court Justices of the United States Supreme Court is visiting my school. Pretty freaking cool! Problem is, I came down with a gnarly cold on Tuesday. I ended up taking Wednesday off from work but I spent a fair bit of bandwidth worrying about what to do if I was not feeling great when I woke up this morning.
On the one hand I realized seeing Justice Jackson speak in person with my AP Gov students is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. On the other hand, I knew I didn’t want to get anyone sick and I certainly didn’t want to get any sicker. There’s also the fact that once we were are in the library, we couldn’t leave and come back because a live radio program was broadcasting the talk.
This morning, like I always do, I went into my ‘Stoic and Buddhist Wisdom” Notebook LM and asked it to give me some helpful reminders. Part of today’s response is below. The first bit of advice, specifically the part about irrational fears, landed perfectly because it spoke to the niggling worry I had all day yesterday about how things would turn out today. The bottom line, I was reminded, is that spending mental energy yesterday worrying about how today would play out was not wise. Both the Stoics and the Buddhists argued against getting caught up in worries about things beyond our control. Indeed, I felt better enough to go to school today so my worries about missing the opportunity were for naught. Had things gone the other way, that would’ve been alright, too.
My daily reminder protocol spits out simple advice, but it was very helpful to hear this morning.
More on the Justice Jackson visit in the coming days.
No, You Can't Have My Phone Number
I was at the mall with my kiddo today and we wound up in a Sephora to get something my kid needed. When making the purchase, I was asked for my phone number. I declined, and was asked for it again. I declined for a second time. I was then told I could ‘share my points with someone else." I didn’t know what the clerk was talking about and I think my politeness meter had declined somewhat noticably (at least that is what my child told me once we’d left). I realize this sort of retail experience is common. Nevertheless, it seriously grates. Indeed, over the years I have evolved a habit of not sharing my personal info with brick and mortar retailers because I don’t trust them.
When I got home I did some poking around and wouldn’t you know it, apparently Sephora (owned by European luxury giant LVMH), was busted in 2022 by the state of California for mishandling customer data. According to the article linked here, “Sephora failed to tell customers that it was selling their personal information, failed to allow customers to opt out of that sale, and didn’t fix the problem within 30 days as required by the law, even after it was notified of the violation, state officials said.” Shocker.
My experience at the mall was a good reminder that distrusting large retailers is probably a good idea.
Tsundoku
I came across a Japanese word recently (having stumbled upon this video) that I am pretty sure was invented specifically to describe me: tsundoku. It refers to the practice of acquiring books and letting them pile up, unread. The word is a blend of tsunde (to stack things) and oku (to leave for a while), with a nod to dokusho, meaning reading. So: books acquired, stacked, and left to wait. Guilty as charged.
As soon as I had disposable income, I started buying more books than I can reasonably read. My shelves are a mix of the finished, the half-finished, and the optimistically purchased. Some books have been waiting patiently for years. I’ve made peace with this. More than peace, actually — I’ve come to think there’s something genuinely pleasurable about it.
Indeed, in recent years I’ve noticed that I get real joy just from browsing my books. Pulling something off the shelf, flipping through the first few pages, putting it back. There’s something nice about knowing a good book is sitting there waiting for you. It feels like having a really good meal to look forward to, or a good show on the horizon. The reading is coming; just not today. Tsundoku, it turns out, doesn’t carry a negative connotation in Japanese. It’s more of an affectionate acknowledgment of a very human habit. I appreciate that. The west tends to pathologize accumulation (though admittedly, the general behavior can get out of control). The Japanese apparently just gave it a name and moved on.
Consider me a proud practitioner.
7 Non-Evergreen Takes on the Iran War
America has started a new war. I don’t know what is going to happen, but as a social studies teacher I am doing my best to educate myself about what is going on, the context, and the possible outcomes. Below are links to a few sources I have watched/listened to about the situation. The talking heads in these videos offer a wide range of thoughts. I thought it would be interesting to post the resources, then come back next year and revisit this admittedly not very evergreen post to see what transpired and who was right about what they thought might happen.
Taming My Commute with The Great Courses
I am one of the unlucky members of the American workforce with a commute that requires extended driving on a freeway through a major metropolitan area. I live in the SW corner of the Portland metro area and have to crisscross the city to and from work in the NE corner of the city. I estimate that I spend about an hour to 70 minutes a day commuting. I’m aware many people have it much worse. Nevertheless, considering I’ve had the same commute for nearly 30 years, it gets a little old.
In the morning I am on the phone with my kiddo, so that stretch is covered. However, in the interest of enjoying the slightly longer trip home every day I have resubscribed to a service that I have enjoyed in the past: The Great Courses. The company started by selling individual courses on CD or VHS that one could purchase. Now, you can stream the lectures on your phone, or watch/listen to them on a computer or iPad. Their collections is vast and I am determined to get my money’s worth learning while I drive home every day. I, like others, don’t need another monthly subscription chipping away at my checking balance, but I think this one is going to be worth it. I’ll revisit down the road and share some of the classes I’ve enjoyed.
The Bus Came By...
February 20 will always be a special date in the calendar for me because I saw my first Grateful Dead show on that day in 1991 (35 years ago as I sit here now). A truly life changing event. Tip of the cap to my brother for taking me. I’ve written about that night on the blog before so I won’t say more.
Happy Lunar New Year! 🔥🐴
Tomorrow is the start of Lunar New Year, celebrated by billions of people around the world. I know very little about the holiday and celebration, though I have picked up a few things from teaching, as I have always taught a large number of Vietnamese-American kids.
This year is the Year of the Fire Horse, not to be confused with the usual Year of the Horse. According to a description I found online, the Fire Horse “symbolizes speed and freedom…[and is] is associated with dramatic, chaotic, and revolutionary changes, favoring bold, fearless, and proactive decisions over cautious ones.” With AI, global climate change, rising authoratarianism, and America’s obvious decline, I’m a bit wary of ‘dramatic, chaotic, and revolutionary changes.’ Oh well, we’ll see.
I happened to be born in the Chinese Year of the Pig. As an American, that sounds pretty awful, but I poked around a bit and discovered that it isn’t as bad as it sounds! See description below from www.chinesenewyear.net
5 Recommendations
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The American Empathy Project Spread the word, we definitely need more of this. It is time to fight back against idiotic ‘Chrstian’ nationalism. More here.
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Netflix’s series House of Guinness. Great, historical drama with a strong cast, good writing, and for once, and absence of gratuitous sex. I’m sure they are takng some liberties with the actual history, but I found the first season entertaining. I hope Season Two is out soon!
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Billy Strings' recent homage to Bobby Weir. Firey Cassidy in Georgia!
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Framing time as cyclical, not linear. I’ve been thinking about this idea as I read Neil Howe’s fascinating book The Fourth Turning is Here. My default is to think of time as linear, but as a teacher my life is very seasonal, and cyclical. This has been an interesting new frame of reference for me.
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Dynalist outlining software. I still think linearly, so that means I like to make outlines to capture my thinking. I tried Workflowy, but didn’t like it (becaue the keystroke commands weren’t intuitive). Dynalist fits my brain better. Is free to use online.
Music as Torture
I finished Steve Coll’s The Achillies Trap last month. Good book. Readwise reminded me last week that I had saved the quote below about the use of music by the C.I.A. prior to the 2003 invasion to signal to Iraqi generals that the United States was ‘around.’ It reminded me of the story of how the C.I.A. used music both to help capture Panamanian dictator Manuel Noriega (Bush the Elder) and to torture prisoners at Guantanamo Bay during the administration of Bush the Younger. Metallica’s Enter Sandman was apparently a favorite. According to Sgt. Mark Hadsell of the 361st Psychological Operations Company, “If you play it for 24 hours, your brain and body functions start to slide… that’s when we come in and talk to them.” This practice, of using western music as torture, eventually led to a Freedom of Information Act request by many artists who wanted to know if their music was used and why it was chosen. Interesting list of artists.
This illustrates an important philosophical and spiritual point, which is that music (and everything else for that matter) is not inherently pleasurable or horrible. It depends on the mind that perceives it and in this case, how often one hears it! You know, the first bowl of ice cream is usually pretty yummy, but being forced to eat 20 of them would make you sick.
In the end, I find that It is a sobering reminder that the same melodies that offer us liberation or comfort can, in a different context, be weaponized to break the human spirit.
Daily Reminders from Notebook LM
I am enjoying learning how to utilize Notebook LM, Google’s relatively new app that allows users to create their own knowledge bases that they can query or use for learning. One way I have started using it has to do with the fact that I enjoy and need daily reminders. Not only do frequent reminders help me internalize a concept, but it also acts as motivation. Some people likely scoff at such habits, but I find a lot of benefit in them.
Below are two screenshots of one of these reminders. I put together a ‘notebook’ with documents that cover 1. Stoicicsm 2. Buddhism 3. Toaism and 4. The teachings of the one and only David Goggins. Hey, anyone who wants to get better should have Goggins chirping at them in their head!
I throw the same question in every morning (I do this in the morning while I am having my first cup of joe and going through my morning routine). It give me a theme and three quick detailed notes that I should keep in mind. The footnotes is a nice Notebook LM feature that allows you to find where the answer is coming from within your notebook. If I click on one of those footnotes, I am taken to where that idea originates.
Another example of how I use Notebook LM has to do with my diet. I upload documents (and websites and videos) that describe the type of diet and health goals I am shooting for. I also ask it to give me a score (and I provide the rubric I want it to use). Then I upload my daily food and beverage intake and ask it to score me. Again, this is way too much for a lot of folks. However, for a QS nerd like me who wants data and frequent encouragement, this is solid gold.


A Quick Hit on the Availability of THC Drinks at the United Center in Chicago
Well, the times they are a-changing. Just a quick note here about the news out of Chicago this week that the United Center, home of the Chicago Bulls (NBA) and Chicago Blackhawks (NHL), is going to start selling beverages with THC. Apparently, they won’t be sold at the those games, though. Hearing this, I’m not sure what I think. Is it better than alcohol? Yes, probably; though I’ve never had a THC beverage so I have no idea how drinking it plays out in someone’s head. I assume they’d be a bit buzzed heading to the parking lot, especially if they have more than one. I saw that one of the arguments in favor of the move is that Americans are much more likely to properly dose themselves with a beverage, than say with a gummy. That makes sense to me. Americans have been self dosing alcohol by imbibing for our entire history. We’re used to medicating ourselves that way. What I wonder is how long it takes for the beverage to have an effect. The longer it takes, the more likely for mayhem on the roads. Then again, concerts take place every night all over America with stoned drivers heading home and that doesn’t seem to be much of an issue. Indeed, since they aren’t selling the beverages at the games (yet), I imagine concert will be the type of event that they will be available at.
Another thought I have about this is that it is a positive step away from alcohol and towards a more benign, though still powerful drug. Combine this with the related fact that Americans are consuming less and less alcohol and I can see why the United Center is making the decision (they are capitalists reacting to what the market wants) and why consumers might be looking for an alternative to $14 Bud Lights (ugh).
I am also curious to see if this catches on in freedom loving blue states where cannabis is legal (as it should be) and where grown ups get to decide for themselves how to relax at a sporting event or concert. Also, how long before they are available at the Bulls and Blackhawks games? Will those leauges, who are so averse to ticking off a part of their fan base, eventually come around. My guess is they big sports leagues will continue to resist, while the idea catches at arenas elsewhere.
Comcast CEO Brian Roberts is Overpaid and the Leader of a Shitty Company
Comcast was so unpopular they had rebrand as Xfinity 15 years ago. Well, Xfinity sucks just as bad Comcast. They are essentially a monopoly, and they act like it (with high prices, shitty customer service, because what are you going do about it??). Yesterday our internet was down for a good 9 hours. They said they were going to improve service. Once it was turned back on, it was slower than before. Today it went out again, and we got no heads up via text. Then, when I went to the app to deal with it, it wouldn’t let me sign in. I knew my password, but it still wouldn’t let me in. Then, of course, I tried to call them to get some help. Did I get a chance to talk to someone? Nope….No humans available.
The CEO of Comcast is a guy named Brian Roberts. He made approximately $34 million in 2024. That was a step down from 2023, when his total compenstaion was $35.5 million. He’s a billionaire, so these earnings are a mere pittance. Guess how he came to the CEO of Comcast? Yep, he’s a nepo baby. His daddy was the founder. He apparently owns ‘only’ 1% of the company via ownership stock, but he owns approximately 33% of the B shares (i.e., the voting shares). The top 3 Shareholders (by equity) are The Vanguard Group (~10%), BlackRock, Inc. (~8.8%), and State Street Corporation (~5%).
Oh, and Comcast also owns a controlling stake in NBC Universal. That means that a nepo baby who didn’t earn shit owns one of the biggest media companies in America, as well as the means of providing the media to your home or computer.
This is another example of someone with too much power, making tremendous amounts of money he merely has the privilege to be earning. Roberts inherited his company, and therefore his disgusting salary. And to be clear, the service they provide, especially their customer service, is shitty.
Funny side note: I just asked Google’s Nano Banana Pro to generate an image of people with pitchforks marching up to a castle named Comcast for my tiny little blog. It wouldn’t do it. Said it was a violation of their guidelines. I read the guidelines and think their explanation is a stretch. Anyway, Google’s got the back of their fellow corporoate overlords covered. Checks out.
OK, rant over.
On Being Sick
Being sick is no fun. I am lucky that I don’t get sick all that often. Unfortunately, today is one of those rare times. I woke up in the middle of the night and knew my body was fighting something. My Oura ring data confirmed things in the morning (not that I needed confirmation, though it is somewhat comforting to know the ring is able to pick up on important changes in my biometrics).
My illness is complicated a bit by the fact that I need to spend a good part of tomorrow afternoon and evening flying across the country. Normally that would throw me for an additional mental loop, perhaps worsening my condition. That situation has me leaning in hard to developing a positive mindset. I am lucky I can take today off and just relax. However, I am also actively working in my mind to convince my body that I am healing and that my trip tomorrow will arise without incident. We shall see.
Being under the weather brings up a few other thoughts about mental framing. For me, I can easily get down on myself for not being as ‘productive’ as I should be. I’ve put off grading for most the past couple weeks and I had hoped to get more done today. I am reframing this as a forced pause that was needed. I am hoping that feeling better, along with the start of the new year, will give me a ‘fresh start effect’ as I dive back into teaching.
It is also a reminder that the body must be respected. I’ve been out of my own bed for almost two weeks now. I spent the night in the Charlotte airport recently, and stayed up late seeing Phish in the Big Apple. My diet, being away from home, has also been off kilter. I respect that my body is sending me a message.
Ultimately, illness interrupts the story we tell about ourselves as capable and in control. It demands less striving and more listening, at least for a while. If there’s wisdom here, it’s not in enduring sickness, but in noticing how quickly we forget the gift of feeling well again.
A Warning System at End of the Year
Ideopunk is right. We need to learn how to course correct on our own. I suppose, our spouses and close friends can provide warning signals. but then again, sometimes confronting someone about the need to rethink something can feel icky.
So how can we create or our own warning signals?
For me, one way is to use events like the start of a new year to reflect. Sure, the timing is arbritary, but it works. For one, the new year always comes in the middle of stretch of time off from work. The winter solstice has also recently occurred, giving me the sense of a new beginning.
My reflection consists of two parts. One, I give myself time for a major brain dump of everything that is on my mind. Secondly, I like the Stop/Start/Continue exercise and apply it to my life. This process usually drips out over several days, allowing my ‘system 2’ thinking to go to work. Do I catch all the warning signs in life that I need to catch? I’m not sure I’m batting 100%, but as a personal warning system, period reflecting helps tremendously.


In Praise of Barnes and Noble
When I travel I love visiting the bookstores in town. Since Covid, because they are ubiquitous, I have had the pleasure of checking out many Barnes & Noble stores. In the past, when big chain bookstores ruled before Amazon, I was always more of a fan of Borders than B&N. However, the visits to various B&Ns around the country over the last several years have led me to change my views about the chain.
One of their strategies, I have learned, is to allow the managers at each location to have leeway to stock the stores based on their knowledge of the local community of book buyers. That way, each store ends of being somewhat unique with a different mix of titles. This is noticeable in Portland when visiting the various B&N locations.
Today I visited the one in North Haven, Connecticut and it was awesome. Something I noticed there, which seems to be a common practice now at their stores, is that they have a wide selection of books. They do this by filing many, many of their books sideways instead of face out. In these parts of their shelves they only have one copy of each book, but the selection of new books is impressive. Rather than the top 10 biggest sellers set up 8 deep, it was hundreds of new books per section filed sideways. I was able to spend about 80 minutes just browsing the non-fiction today.
We are visiting NYC soon and instead of Barnes and Noble I am looking forward to visiting The Strand. Will report on that visit soon.