Taming My Commute with The Great Courses

I am one of the unlucky members of the American workforce with a commute that requires extended driving on a freeway through a major metropolitan area. I live in the SW corner of the Portland metro area and have to crisscross the city to and from work in the NE corner of the city. I estimate that I spend about an hour to 70 minutes a day commuting. I’m aware many people have it much worse. Nevertheless, considering I’ve had the same commute for nearly 30 years, it gets a little old.

In the morning I am on the phone with my kiddo, so that stretch is covered. However, in the interest of enjoying the slightly longer trip home every day I have resubscribed to a service that I have enjoyed in the past: The Great Courses. The company started by selling individual courses on CD or VHS that one could purchase. Now, you can stream the lectures on your phone, or watch/listen to them on a computer or iPad. Their collections is vast and I am determined to get my money’s worth learning while I drive home every day. I, like others, don’t need another monthly subscription chipping away at my checking balance, but I think this one is going to be worth it. I’ll revisit down the road and share some of the classes I’ve enjoyed.


On the Good Life

I am reading Annie Dillard’s The Writing Life. Really loved this quote…


The Bus Came By...

February 20 will always be a special date in the calendar for me because I saw my first Grateful Dead show on that day in 1991 (35 years ago as I sit here now). A truly life changing event. Tip of the cap to my brother for taking me. I’ve written about that night on the blog before so I won’t say more.


Happy Lunar New Year! đŸ”„đŸŽ

Tomorrow is the start of Lunar New Year, celebrated by billions of people around the world. I know very little about the holiday and celebration, though I have picked up a few things from teaching, as I have always taught a large number of Vietnamese-American kids.

This year is the Year of the Fire Horse, not to be confused with the usual Year of the Horse. According to a description I found online, the Fire Horse “symbolizes speed and freedom…[and is] is associated with dramatic, chaotic, and revolutionary changes, favoring bold, fearless, and proactive decisions over cautious ones.” With AI, global climate change, rising authoratarianism, and America’s obvious decline, I’m a bit wary of ‘dramatic, chaotic, and revolutionary changes.’ Oh well, we’ll see.

I happened to be born in the Chinese Year of the Pig. As an American, that sounds pretty awful, but I poked around a bit and discovered that it isn’t as bad as it sounds! See description below from www.chinesenewyear.net


5 Recommendations

  1. The American Empathy Project Spread the word, we definitely need more of this. It is time to fight back against idiotic ‘Chrstian’ nationalism. More here.

  2. Netflix’s series House of Guinness. Great, historical drama with a strong cast, good writing, and for once, and absence of gratuitous sex. I’m sure they are takng some liberties with the actual history, but I found the first season entertaining. I hope Season Two is out soon!

  3. Billy Strings' recent homage to Bobby Weir. Firey Cassidy in Georgia!

  4. Framing time as cyclical, not linear. I’ve been thinking about this idea as I read Neil Howe’s fascinating book The Fourth Turning is Here. My default is to think of time as linear, but as a teacher my life is very seasonal, and cyclical. This has been an interesting new frame of reference for me.

  5. Dynalist outlining software. I still think linearly, so that means I like to make outlines to capture my thinking. I tried Workflowy, but didn’t like it (becaue the keystroke commands weren’t intuitive). Dynalist fits my brain better. Is free to use online.


Music as Torture

I finished Steve Coll’s The Achillies Trap last month. Good book. Readwise reminded me last week that I had saved the quote below about the use of music by the C.I.A. prior to the 2003 invasion to signal to Iraqi generals that the United States was ‘around.’ It reminded me of the story of how the C.I.A. used music both to help capture Panamanian dictator Manuel Noriega (Bush the Elder) and to torture prisoners at Guantanamo Bay during the administration of Bush the Younger. Metallica’s Enter Sandman was apparently a favorite. According to Sgt. Mark Hadsell of the 361st Psychological Operations Company, “If you play it for 24 hours, your brain and body functions start to slide… that’s when we come in and talk to them.” This practice, of using western music as torture, eventually led to a Freedom of Information Act request by many artists who wanted to know if their music was used and why it was chosen. Interesting list of artists.

This illustrates an important philosophical and spiritual point, which is that music (and everything else for that matter) is not inherently pleasurable or horrible. It depends on the mind that perceives it and in this case, how often one hears it! You know, the first bowl of ice cream is usually pretty yummy, but being forced to eat 20 of them would make you sick.

In the end, I find that It is a sobering reminder that the same melodies that offer us liberation or comfort can, in a different context, be weaponized to break the human spirit.


Daily Reminders from Notebook LM

I am enjoying learning how to utilize Notebook LM, Google’s relatively new app that allows users to create their own knowledge bases that they can query or use for learning. One way I have started using it has to do with the fact that I enjoy and need daily reminders. Not only do frequent reminders help me internalize a concept, but it also acts as motivation. Some people likely scoff at such habits, but I find a lot of benefit in them.

Below are two screenshots of one of these reminders. I put together a ‘notebook’ with documents that cover 1. Stoicicsm 2. Buddhism 3. Toaism and 4. The teachings of the one and only David Goggins. Hey, anyone who wants to get better should have Goggins chirping at them in their head!

I throw the same question in every morning (I do this in the morning while I am having my first cup of joe and going through my morning routine). It give me a theme and three quick detailed notes that I should keep in mind. The footnotes is a nice Notebook LM feature that allows you to find where the answer is coming from within your notebook. If I click on one of those footnotes, I am taken to where that idea originates.

Another example of how I use Notebook LM has to do with my diet. I upload documents (and websites and videos) that describe the type of diet and health goals I am shooting for. I also ask it to give me a score (and I provide the rubric I want it to use). Then I upload my daily food and beverage intake and ask it to score me. Again, this is way too much for a lot of folks. However, for a QS nerd like me who wants data and frequent encouragement, this is solid gold.


A Quick Hit on the Availability of THC Drinks at the United Center in Chicago

Well, the times they are a-changing. Just a quick note here about the news out of Chicago this week that the United Center, home of the Chicago Bulls (NBA) and Chicago Blackhawks (NHL), is going to start selling beverages with THC. Apparently, they won’t be sold at the those games, though. Hearing this, I’m not sure what I think. Is it better than alcohol? Yes, probably; though I’ve never had a THC beverage so I have no idea how drinking it plays out in someone’s head. I assume they’d be a bit buzzed heading to the parking lot, especially if they have more than one. I saw that one of the arguments in favor of the move is that Americans are much more likely to properly dose themselves with a beverage, than say with a gummy. That makes sense to me. Americans have been self dosing alcohol by imbibing for our entire history. We’re used to medicating ourselves that way. What I wonder is how long it takes for the beverage to have an effect. The longer it takes, the more likely for mayhem on the roads. Then again, concerts take place every night all over America with stoned drivers heading home and that doesn’t seem to be much of an issue. Indeed, since they aren’t selling the beverages at the games (yet), I imagine concert will be the type of event that they will be available at.

Another thought I have about this is that it is a positive step away from alcohol and towards a more benign, though still powerful drug. Combine this with the related fact that Americans are consuming less and less alcohol and I can see why the United Center is making the decision (they are capitalists reacting to what the market wants) and why consumers might be looking for an alternative to $14 Bud Lights (ugh).

I am also curious to see if this catches on in freedom loving blue states where cannabis is legal (as it should be) and where grown ups get to decide for themselves how to relax at a sporting event or concert. Also, how long before they are available at the Bulls and Blackhawks games? Will those leauges, who are so averse to ticking off a part of their fan base, eventually come around. My guess is they big sports leagues will continue to resist, while the idea catches at arenas elsewhere.


Sounds About Right

The Kitchen Dwellers nailed it.

See the commentary and performance here.


Comcast CEO Brian Roberts is Overpaid and the Leader of a Shitty Company

Comcast was so unpopular they had rebrand as Xfinity 15 years ago. Well, Xfinity sucks just as bad Comcast. They are essentially a monopoly, and they act like it (with high prices, shitty customer service, because what are you going do about it??). Yesterday our internet was down for a good 9 hours. They said they were going to improve service. Once it was turned back on, it was slower than before. Today it went out again, and we got no heads up via text. Then, when I went to the app to deal with it, it wouldn’t let me sign in. I knew my password, but it still wouldn’t let me in. Then, of course, I tried to call them to get some help. Did I get a chance to talk to someone? Nope….No humans available.

The CEO of Comcast is a guy named Brian Roberts. He made approximately $34 million in 2024. That was a step down from 2023, when his total compenstaion was $35.5 million. He’s a billionaire, so these earnings are a mere pittance. Guess how he came to the CEO of Comcast? Yep, he’s a nepo baby. His daddy was the founder. He apparently owns ‘only’ 1% of the company via ownership stock, but he owns approximately 33% of the B shares (i.e., the voting shares). The top 3 Shareholders (by equity) are The Vanguard Group (~10%), BlackRock, Inc. (~8.8%), and State Street Corporation (~5%).

Oh, and Comcast also owns a controlling stake in NBC Universal. That means that a nepo baby who didn’t earn shit owns one of the biggest media companies in America, as well as the means of providing the media to your home or computer.

This is another example of someone with too much power, making tremendous amounts of money he merely has the privilege to be earning. Roberts inherited his company, and therefore his disgusting salary. And to be clear, the service they provide, especially their customer service, is shitty.

Funny side note: I just asked Google’s Nano Banana Pro to generate an image of people with pitchforks marching up to a castle named Comcast for my tiny little blog. It wouldn’t do it. Said it was a violation of their guidelines. I read the guidelines and think their explanation is a stretch. Anyway, Google’s got the back of their fellow corporoate overlords covered. Checks out.

OK, rant over.


On Being Sick

Being sick is no fun. I am lucky that I don’t get sick all that often. Unfortunately, today is one of those rare times. I woke up in the middle of the night and knew my body was fighting something. My Oura ring data confirmed things in the morning (not that I needed confirmation, though it is somewhat comforting to know the ring is able to pick up on important changes in my biometrics).

My illness is complicated a bit by the fact that I need to spend a good part of tomorrow afternoon and evening flying across the country. Normally that would throw me for an additional mental loop, perhaps worsening my condition. That situation has me leaning in hard to developing a positive mindset. I am lucky I can take today off and just relax. However, I am also actively working in my mind to convince my body that I am healing and that my trip tomorrow will arise without incident. We shall see.

Being under the weather brings up a few other thoughts about mental framing. For me, I can easily get down on myself for not being as ‘productive’ as I should be. I’ve put off grading for most the past couple weeks and I had hoped to get more done today. I am reframing this as a forced pause that was needed. I am hoping that feeling better, along with the start of the new year, will give me a ‘fresh start effect’ as I dive back into teaching.

It is also a reminder that the body must be respected. I’ve been out of my own bed for almost two weeks now. I spent the night in the Charlotte airport recently, and stayed up late seeing Phish in the Big Apple. My diet, being away from home, has also been off kilter. I respect that my body is sending me a message.

Ultimately, illness interrupts the story we tell about ourselves as capable and in control. It demands less striving and more listening, at least for a while. If there’s wisdom here, it’s not in enduring sickness, but in noticing how quickly we forget the gift of feeling well again.


A Warning System at End of the Year

Ideopunk is right. We need to learn how to course correct on our own. I suppose, our spouses and close friends can provide warning signals. but then again, sometimes confronting someone about the need to rethink something can feel icky.

So how can we create or our own warning signals?

For me, one way is to use events like the start of a new year to reflect. Sure, the timing is arbritary, but it works. For one, the new year always comes in the middle of stretch of time off from work. The winter solstice has also recently occurred, giving me the sense of a new beginning.

My reflection consists of two parts. One, I give myself time for a major brain dump of everything that is on my mind. Secondly, I like the Stop/Start/Continue exercise and apply it to my life. This process usually drips out over several days, allowing my ‘system 2’ thinking to go to work. Do I catch all the warning signs in life that I need to catch? I’m not sure I’m batting 100%, but as a personal warning system, period reflecting helps tremendously.


In Praise of Barnes and Noble

When I travel I love visiting the bookstores in town. Since Covid, because they are ubiquitous, I have had the pleasure of checking out many Barnes & Noble stores. In the past, when big chain bookstores ruled before Amazon, I was always more of a fan of Borders than B&N. However, the visits to various B&Ns around the country over the last several years have led me to change my views about the chain.

One of their strategies, I have learned, is to allow the managers at each location to have leeway to stock the stores based on their knowledge of the local community of book buyers. That way, each store ends of being somewhat unique with a different mix of titles. This is noticeable in Portland when visiting the various B&N locations.

Today I visited the one in North Haven, Connecticut and it was awesome. Something I noticed there, which seems to be a common practice now at their stores, is that they have a wide selection of books. They do this by filing many, many of their books sideways instead of face out. In these parts of their shelves they only have one copy of each book, but the selection of new books is impressive. Rather than the top 10 biggest sellers set up 8 deep, it was hundreds of new books per section filed sideways. I was able to spend about 80 minutes just browsing the non-fiction today.

We are visiting NYC soon and instead of Barnes and Noble I am looking forward to visiting The Strand. Will report on that visit soon.


Adult Merit Badges

It would be cool if we collected weird merit badges as adults. Imagine, finding the right Tupperware top for the container on the first try. That would earn you the Tupperware Matchmaker badge. Or, you successfully remember to cancel the trial subscription the day before they start charging you? You win a Free Trial Sniper badge. Other badges might include the Ikea Master badge for putting a piece of IKEA furniture together alone and without error (I’m still working on that one) or Social Battery Preserver badge for dipping from a party early wihout being rude.

That brings me to my recent travel experience. Travel, of course, has it’s perks–but also it’s dangers. I’m usually willing to take the risk. However, traveling to the east coast over the winter holidays is always quite risky. Recently we caught a connecting flight out of Dallas on our way to Connecticut. About 80% of the way there the pilot came on the intercom and announced we were being diverted to North Carolina, ETA 11:30 pm. The TL;DR is that we ended up sleeping in the B gate at the Charlotte airport and made it up north early the next morning. This was the third airport I’ve managed to be spend the night at and the first with the whole family. We survived…and I earned myself another Slept in Airport badge.


Starting Over Again

I am a believer in habits and streaks. I agree with the Ryan Holiday quote below that they say something important about what we value. However, the fact is that if you try to maintain a lot of habits every day and you keep track of them, you’re bound to break a few. Yesterday, my streak of days with a blog post ended. I was up around 120 days straight, but with travel and visiting family taking priority, my streak went kaput yesterday.

I know some people get easily bent out of shape when an important streak is broken. I get it. The impact reminds me of what some say about tracking things like sleep; that the stress of the numbers ends up making one’s sleep even worse. And again, I can see how that would work for a lot people.

Luckily, that isn’t how my mind works. I strive to continue my streaks, but once they’re over I try to get back on the horse and start a new one without feeling bad about it. Despite my blogging streak ending, I have so far managed to keep two other important streaks alive so far–my daily journal entry and my daily meditation.

So, here I am: On the road, with my days a bit topsy turvy, trying to start a new streak (and keep other ones going). I’ll do my best to beat my last blogging streak but won’t be discouraged if I can’t on this new round. We shall see.


Winter Has Begun

The winter solstice is a big day on my calendar. So much of what Christmas has become is really a celebration of the fact that the darkest day of the year has been reached, and that more light is coming, despite the days continuing to grow colder. The evergreens in our homes, the lights on the trees, and the candles and their atmospheric wonder help us cope with the mugging by the dark and the cold. I love it and I love that the days slowly get longer. Indeed, it is an element of the winter and spring that I most appreciate.

Here are some beautiful poems about winter.

Mary Oliver’s Snowy Night

Susan Cooper’s Shortest Day

Wendell Berry’s To Know The Dark

And some music



My Most Recently Added Tunes and Top 25 Most Played Tunes (in Apple Music)

As we get closer to the end of the year, the QS nerd in me kicks into gear. Apple Music makes it easy to capture a few stats, including what has recently been added and All Time Most Played. Screenshots below shine a light on my musical tastes. I’ve been using Apple Music for about 20 years, so the All Time list goes pretty far back. Another detail to note is that the pop music in the recently added pic are songs downloaded by my daughter, who uses an iPad that is signed in to my Apple ID. Oh well. I’m glad she is developing her own taste in music, though. She definitely knows what she likes and what she doesn’t.


He Does Not Forget

We dropped our cat off at the kennel today and that got me thinking about cats. That led me to J.R.R. Tolkien’s poem ‘Cat’ which beautifully juxtaposes a domesticated cat with it’s wild ancestors. The poem appeared not in one of Tolkien’s most famous novels, but in The Adventures of Tom Bombadil.

but fat cat on the mat

kept as a pet

he does not forget.


Life is Aperiodic

I just came across a concept that was new to me, the concept of being aperiodic. Technically, ‘aperiodic’ describes something that does not repeat at regular intervals. More precisely, it describes a system, pattern, or process is aperiodic if it lacks a fixed cycle—there is no consistent period after which it repeats exactly. A common example that we all learn about in school is the number pi. Another example is the tiling pattern known as the Penrose tiling pattern. Mathamatically, what is cool about this is that an aperiodic thing can still have structure, order, or rules, just not repetition.

Upon reflection, it is clear that life is aperiodic. I think we crave cycles because they feel safe: routines, habits, three-year plans. But our lived experience rarely cycles neatly. Even when days look similar on the surface, our interior weather keeps changing and the details are always a bit different. The same evening stroll hits differently depending on worry, hope, hunger, or sleep. Hearing the same song lands with a new weight. There is pattern, yes; but not repetition.

This makes me realize that it is okay if an open loop doesn’t always close when or how I expected. I want to pay more attention to the variations in the pattern of my day to day. Is that not where some of the wisdom hides, in the differences?

Iranian glazed ceramic tile work, from the ceiling of the Tomb of Hafez in Shiraz, Iran. Province of Fars.


Mortality

I had never heard of the poet William Knox until I came across his name in Jon Meacham’s excellent book And There Was Light, which is about Abraham Lincoln and his spiritual beliefs. Apparently, the poem was one of Lincoln’s all time favorites. The poem is called Mortality. I looked it up and consider it a wonderful nod to memento mori; an always welcome reminder.